I have to say that I will miss the smell of the wood stove burning and the sight of fresh snowfall on the landscape around me. But not nearly as much as I will welcome early sunlight and colorful blooms and a change of attire.
I love spring because it’s all about rebirth. Awakening. Shaking off a few layers and opening up to new possibilities.
This past week was nothing short of a roller coaster ride. Ev and I both started our news jobs at the same time. It’s time to make the donuts. We stocked our kitchen with too many dollar signs worth of groceries and I visited numerous second-hand stores for more baby stuff because Sienna would be splitting her time between her GG, her great Aunty Mia and her great Aunty Tanya. These women are amazing and Ev and I couldn’t do what we are doing without them.
This is the first time in a long time that I can look forward to weekends again, and it’s already chock full of errands to run and people to visit. But I am seriously excited. We are already doing many of the things that we have been talking about for what feels like forever. Taking walks, spending quality time with family and friends, and saving that hard earned dough for all the bigger, better things that are on the horizon.
With all of this newness comes a real honest need for patience and perspective. I am notorious for taking on too much. I get restless when things slow down and overwhelmed when things speed up. I continue to struggle to maintain a balance.
Speaking of balance…
But that’s the best feeling. It’s not that I don’t want her to grow up. I hear so many moms comment about how it makes them sad to pack up their kid’s old clothes or when they observe a new developmental milestone it’s bittersweet. And I can officially say that yes, it certainly can be. But it is also so very awesome and I am so happy that I get to be a part of this. It still feels like she was just born, like she was so little and precious just yesterday. And here she is, beautiful and healthy and on the move. Anytime I feel overwhelmed by life, I look at her and I’m back to center.
All I can say is we are lucky. Lucky. Lucky.